Today is seriously one of the best day of my life. Getting to spend time with you always the most favorite things.
Even though I had to admit that seeing my ex yesterday made my heart flustered a little bit. All of the memories that we had together came back a little bit. I remember how he used to take care of me, how we used to dance together and lastly, during the wedding, they played our song. I cannot describe that feeling. Maybe it's just a nice little flashback. Even though we only had a little short amount of good memories, but it was happy moments. I probably did not miss him, but I miss the memory that we used to share. I glanced at him a couple of times and I knew he did too.
While we were on the dance floor together, we exchanged couple awkward smiles, but I am more happy now that I have you. Seeing your text last night just made me really happy happy. Now I have to say that I am so glad that we broke up so I get the chance to meet you, to train with you , to talk to you, and finally to be in love with you. That is like one of the best thing that happened to me this year despite all of the bad lucks.

Talking about today, it IS one of the most amazing day in my life that I can count. I get to do things that Ive been wanting to do for you. We get to eat together. You fed me cheesecake and vice versa. I am so happy,. Even though I do not like cheesecake that much but I learned to like it because of you. Getting to spend time with you, watching movie with you, eating with you, looking at your albums together is my favorite things to do. I can do that all day long for the rest of my life.

Your smile made me happy. I love love love to see your smile and make you laugh. I seriously would not trade anything in this world to replace this smile of yours.
Even though you said mean things to me like " I wasted 5 hours of this with you" I knew you were just irrupted at the computer.

I love your hugs. Your hug made me feel so warm and my life is completed.


Even though today is such a good day. I am just so so scared that you want to help me with everything and take good care of me so you can leave me ...
Like you said those are the things that I cannot control anyways so I rather enjoy every moment and every time I get to spend with you......

I am scared that one day I won't able to see you, to talky to you and being able to see your smile but I will be strong... Tran Pham Viet Thanh, I just love you so much already ...

Yesterday is another happy and simple day with you. How can you make me so happy without even doing anything ? For the past week, I was very depressed and lost cause I do not know what directions I want to take in life anymore. I seemed not to know if I chose the right major for my career. I felt hopeless and when I felt that way, I tended to withdraw from everything including you  I do not feel the urge to call you because I just felt like I gonna bother you with all my negativity. That is the least thing I wanted to do. I told myself I need to be stronger and better myself so I can support you. But it seemed to not happen that way.YOU are always the stronger one who supports me. Thank you for everything you do for me. I feel like you are the best knight or the best gift that Buddha and God has given me this year despite all of the unlucky things happened to me this year. I am thankful every moment that we get to spend with each other.

p.s thank you for warming up my hands. My heart almost melted.

Cancer Surival Dinner

Today, I work 12 hours shift volunteering at the Cancer Survival Dinner. It was such an amazing event. I felt so rewarded and inspirational. Everyone was so nice and helpful. I met a lot of new cool people. Even though I am so tired running around and helping setting up. But I felt my job is so rewarded. I am so happy. I get the opportunity to hear a lot of touching stories of how people overcame cancer. It is just an inspirational journey. I started to believe we can really achieve everything in this world as long as we have the will to do so.

Today is also my mom's birthday. She's an amazing strong women who has the biggest heart in this world. She's the hardest working mom, the best cook in this whole wide world, the most worrisome mom, the best of the best, Even though we do not get along pretty well, but I know we love each other so much. We are the type of person who do not express our feelings well, but we kept our love in our heart and thru actions. Even though I did not get a chance to celebrate with her today, but volunteering and being an good citizen to the society is the biggest gift I can give to my mom. I hope that she will be proud of me.

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA :) I love you





and CONGRATULATION CANCER's SURVIVOR. You guys rock the stage. !!!

November, 3rd 2013.

Today, the time changes again which mean winter season is coming really soon. I love love Xmas season because of decorations. I love to look at the pretty lights at every corner of the street. It gave people some really good feelings.

While going thru my Facebook's new feeds today. I came across this article about marriage. " Marriage isn't for you" in my mind, I thought it probably something article about people regretting to get marriage. I too believe in marriage is something really magical, but society had impact me a little on changing my aspects about marriage. I ended up clicking on the link to the article instead of doing my homework. hehehe

" True marriage (and true love) is never about you. It’s about the person you love—their wants, their needs, their hopes, and their dreams"



I find this saying is very true. When you really love somebody, what matter is whether you can make other half happy...

p.s I really want to make you happy and smile once again....

A goodbye to a quick crush, a friend, and most of all a big brother.

Today, while waiting for a little date with my"grandpa", I called one of my best guy friend because I haven't talk to him for a while. However, he told me the bad news, he submitted the education leave for a year yesterday to be moving back to Washington because he needs to figure out what he gonna do with his life. He said he is tired and needs a break :( This guy holds an important place in my heart,  I called him "manwhore" cause he cannot never decided on his feelings toward anyone and always go fool around. But I love this guy to death (as a friend of course). He took care of me like a little sister and he spoiled me all the time. I get anything I want from him. Because I am the oldest sister in my family and never had a really big bro to talk or to take care of me. This guy showed me how it felt like to have one. He always there for me when I needed him, when I am sad, he always buy me cupcake to cheer me up. He protected me when we went clubbing. We had so many memories together that I cannot even count: 

-The time we went to Dana Point to see sunset and whale watching. It was a magical date. 

- Disneyland

- San Diego for Tet's holiday. It was the first time I got drunk in my life. He took care of me. He carried me around cause he was too drunk to walk. I wanted to use the restroom so I hit him so hard to drive me to the closest one. 

- Museum

- Vegas Time with him was the best. My best friend, him and I slept on the same bed. He had this special smell that I used to be addicting too. (To be honest, i did had a crush on him for the longest) but I know he's just a really good good friend/brother of mine. 

There was time we stopped talking to each other, but then we both realized that we are connected in some ways that because we shared the good and bad memories that nobody can understand.  Obstacles, arguments and misunderstanding make our relationship a stronger one. 

My Jerry berry is the guy who doesn't say corny stuff. However, he once told me" You are truly a good friend of my life". He said I earned it.. hehehe

You know how much I love you right ? Even though you will be pretty far away from me but I hope you can find your passion and get back on track. Life is tough but we have to be strong to fight it back buddy. 

Truly love you, my jerry berry. 

:) 

Saturday, November 2nd, 2013. 

Today is the day you took me out to make me happy. In the morning, you wanted to meet me in person cause you need to tell me something. I thought it was something really serious. All of the crazy thoughts run thru my mind. I was thinking you probably you are moving to Texas, or you want to keep a distant from me, etc. My heart jumped around for the whole date until I saw you. You toke me out for yogurt. We talked and had fun. You said that I cannot make you happy. But how can I make you happy when you didn’t even try to give me a chance to do so ? But at least today is Jessie’s day. You do everything to make me happy. 

We ate yogurt. and I cannot believe we play badminton in the parking lot.  Who does that ? We do I love how we did silly things together… Finally, we get a chance to do something that we promised each other. I was really happy. I saw your laugh and my heart beats faster. You know, I would do anything in this world to see that laugh everyday..

Then we went to eat dinner. You took me out even though you didn’t even want to. I feel so much love. But I do not know why the more I feel that more nice things to do for me, you might left in silence. Thank you for reassuring me that you are not. 

You told me that I do not know how to enjoy the moment, I did really enjoy it but I just worried too much abbout you leaving me. But you are right, Mr Grandpa. I will start to enjoy every moment that I spend time with you because you know why, I cannot predict or control anythings in life anyways… 

p.s thank you for an amazing day and truly yours as always.