Sunday, November 16, 2014...
A gloomy day.. I feel like life is hard now. There's a lot of things which is very easy to do, yet so hard to accomplish. I really did not want to him to drive because I am worried he's tired. Part of me wanted him to come with me, yet another part of me wanted him to come with me. Anh Thanh was right, I had a thought that because I did something for him, he should've been on the phone talking to me. I am once again failed at loving him the way I want to. How can I improve myself? Why I always do the things acceding to my heart not my soul. I should think more with my head. I am so selfish when it comes to you aThanh. I just want you all for myself. I wish I can move on. I think I kinda moved on already because I learnt to accept the fact that we cannot be together. The love I have for you now is different kind of love. The love that I only from you is your happiness.

It has been so long since I wrote a blog about him.

I've been happy with my life. I learn many things at work and I love it. I think finally I found a place to and learn and grow with my career.

Besides my career, my love life has been really good too.
Recently I had a feeling that I want to give up on aThanh.
Even though I really love him, but I feel this time is a different kind of love now. It's more like I just want him to be happy. Being besides him is enough. I wanted to be someone special to him, but then I feel like we cannot be a couple. I want to take care and give him all the best things in the world. But then again, I feel like I cannot be together with him. He has too many people that he is taking care of. I do not want me to be a burden to him as I don't want to be one. I wanted to give all the happiness and joy in the world.