It is almost a year since the first day I met Thanh V Tran, but the way I felt about him never stops. How can I love him so much ? I cannot answer that. He becomes my daily drug dose I need to take. I need to talk to him in order for me to be happy and function throughout the dates. Like I cannot imagine my life without his existence in the future ! I really do not how. I do not know when that dates gonna come but I hope it will won't because I would love to live in this beautiful dream with him forever. 

Since he already decided that we cannot be together, and I even know that but then for some reasons, I just can't accept that. He told me once, that I will able to move on once I find a new boyfriend, but how can I ? Since I love him too too much already.. 

Even though I know that one day when I have to eventually moved on because I dont know how long I can be like this. but I hope I have enough courage to continue with my decision which is being my his side, supporting him, taking care of him, being silly besides him, talking to him most of the days in a week when I know there will be no future for us.....